Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Seeing The Future

"Don't take pictures now! Why are we not eating?! FEED MEEEEEE!!" Takes after his mom. 

It has been incredible to watch Jack figure out the world. He looks down the street when he hears the train coming. He opens his mouth wide when the spoons come out. And, most validating of all, he lifts up his arms when I reach to pick him up. It’s exciting to see him anticipate what will happen next, even if it’s only four or five seconds in the future.

More incredible, perhaps, has been my ability to peer into the future. I have always been a planner, and Jack’s randomness is his most enigmatic quality to me. When he was brand new, friends would ask if we could get together in the next week, but they could have asked if we could get together in 45 years – I didn’t know what the next hour would hold, so the answer would have been the same. But I have gotten so much better. Last week I even went to lunch with our friends. I have somehow learned to find organization in our life together, even though his adorable, single tooth has put his penchant for unpredictability at an all time high.

Again, I have always been a neurotic planner, but finally embracing the unpredictability has let me better enjoy the pieces of the future that I can see. He has learned how to stick his arms through his pajama sleeves, and I have learned that he’ll be asleep around 6:00. He can see that in ten seconds, I’m going to pull him out of his car seat, and I can see when we have thirty minutes left in his car seat before he screams like the entire world is burning in a fiery apocalypse. We’re not fortunetellers or anything, but we’re both getting better.

b perry

7 comments:

  1. You are an amazing writer, thinker and Mom:)

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  2. The unpredictability is terrifying even to someone who ISN'T a neurotic planner (AKA me)! The first 3 months before babies can kind of start to have a semblance of schedule? Torturous. I'm so glad Jack is starting to let you figure him out :)

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    1. Because I am slightly less amazing than you it took me slightly longer than three months... like eight months. lol.

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  3. Well, with that kind of fortune-telling ability... it looks like you're making a pilgrimage to Idaho this summer. Can I see you while you're there? Please? (and not just at a 10 year reunion?) I think I need to meet this beyond adorable little guy.

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    1. HECK YES! Message me, we'll figure it out asap.

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  4. Feeling them lift up their arms when you go to pick them up is really the best. It gets even better when they run (read: toddler waddle) over to give you a hug when they see you walk in the room. I think those validating moments are when I realize that parenting is actually sometimes a very selfish endeavor :)

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